Memoirs of a Saggitarius

I am one very blessed individual. Just wanted to throw that out there.

I’m pleased with the person I’ve become. I look through the years at the changes I’ve undergone, the transformation from child to adult has been immense. I almost can not recognize the person I’ve become. But the near-stranger I see looking back at me from the mirror doesn’t scare me. I’ve grown to love that person. Not something I could have said just a few short years ago.

The life I’ve built, the family I’ve made, took a lot of work. But it was worth every single second of pain it took to get me to this place.

I’ve become, at least I hope, a woman my mother would be proud of. And I couldn’t have done it without all the people in my life. So thank you. Good and bad, friends and enemies. I wouldn’t be the person I am today if it were not for you.

Posted 9 months ago

Of All The Things I Miss…

I miss my belly button the most.

Yep. My belly button. I liked my bellybutton. It wasn’t special, but it was mine. And now it’s gone. I never really thought much about much. Took it for granted you could say. I know I will get it back, but it seems like such a long long way from now. 103 days until my due date to be exact.

But my belly button isn’t the only thing I miss. To finish the quote in the title, I miss my mind. Not the most. Not as much as my belly button. But I do miss it. I feel all fuzzy-brained all the time. And when I’m not fuzzy brained, I feel pissed. Ok, pissed is a bit of an understatement. I am outright enraged. It sucks worse than the fuzzy-brained.

I also miss my toes. I don’t see them much any more, it’s like an old friend that you’ve grown apart from. You see them occasionally by accident, promise you will see them again soon and make plans…but deep down you know you won’t. Not anytime soon. Of course, in keeping with the analogy it’s like seeing a friend after a long time and realizing that they got FAT! When I do see my piggies, it’s because they are swollen so Chris makes me put them up…they look gross.

I miss not being a Wookie. I miss not having to shuffle. I miss being able to stand up without having to stop because it hurts. I miss walking too fast for Chris, so I have to slow down. I miss cute clothes. I miss my boots. I miss not waking up because I have to pee.

Don’t get me wrong, I love the baby boy growing inside of me. I would never give him up for ANYTHING. He is one of the three best things that has ever happened to me (Sammy and Chris being on that list).

But MAN pregnancy sucks. The results are definitely worth the effort, but who knew growing a little person could be such hard work?!

Posted 1 year ago — 2 notes

Humanitarian Hummer…Wait, What??

I know I do not do the budgeting for Red Cross. I am not an executive for this “humanitarian organization” I do not know what it takes to run a world wide organization. The hours, the dollars, the time and effort put into it are over my head. I am a lowly retail assistant. But what the HELL??

The cost of a hummer range between 31,000 and 41,000…USED. And as for miles per gallon, any one want to guess? Hm? No? Ok, I’ll tell you. 10-15 mpg. Where in the budget for a humanitarian organization (that is currently dealing with the disaster in Japan, btw) is there room for a FRIGGING HUMMER as well as the GAS that beast guzzles???? This just seems a little jacked to me. MAYBE the JACKASS who invested in those STUPID ASS SUVs can go actually spend some time in disaster zones that are in desperate need of help and see where the money HE is WASTING ON A NEW TOY could actually be going! UGH!

I am aware that Hummer has been donating money and blah blah blah, I’m not completely naive. But I’m sorry, even still the gas used to fuel those things alone cost more than the measly 100,000 a year Hummer donates! Do they give free gas too??

My rant is over. Goodbye

Posted 1 year ago — 2 notes

I Hate Mother’s Day

WHAT?????

I know. It’s horrible. But I do. I hate mother’s day. Don’t get me wrong. I agree that some people have some pretty amazing moms and they deserve a day dedicated to them. BUT there are some pretty crappy “mothers” who also have a day dedicated to them. I look at these women, treating their child poorly because they are too wrapped up in their own selfish needs and wants to realize one simple thing. YOUR CHILD NEEDS YOU! I don’t want to go into detail or offend anyone, so I will just leave it at that. Stop being a crappy mom. I know, I DON’T have full custody of my child. I am just now financially stable enough to take care of her, I also made some stupid decisions. But I’m THERE for her. I know what goes on in her life and I can guarantee it WON’T be like this forever.

That’s not the only reason I hate Mother’s Day. Noooo ma’am, not by far the only reason. I work retail. Need I say more? I never get to spend mother’s day enjoying being a mother because I work retail. And that’s fine, I get it we’re busy. I’m not complaining about that. But what in the world are you doing at the mall, freaking out because you forgot it was Mother’s Day?? THAT is why working retail during Mother’s Day sucks. I love my job, I love helping people pick out mother’s day gifts. But c’mon guys. Really? It’s the day before and you’re JUST remembering?? It makes me sad. I WISH I had the opportunity to buy my mom a gift (and the root of the issue is revealed). When I turned 16 I got a job. I could BUY things! But did I get to buy a present for my mom? Nope. Cause guess what else happened when I was 16? Eeeexactly. So you’re lucky. You’re lucky to have a mom, and you should buy her the single most thoughtful and amazing gift in the world. You should have been planning something for months. She should know that you love and appreciate her more than any other person could ever love and appreciate someone.

Now that I’ve vented about my ba-hum-bug attitude towards Mother’s Day, I’m going to go be a horrible person elsewhere.

Posted 1 year ago

Olive Oil Roasted Tomatoes & Fennel with White Beans

So this is my recipe of the week. This one is pretty amazing. I didn’t think I would enjoy it (fennel kind of smells like black licorice…but tastes like total friggin yummy!) I’ve been venturing out trying out more recipes. Epicurious has been by #1 used app on my phone. So yea, long story short, this one is worth trying. Makes a great side veggie dish or a main course for you lame-o vegetarians (jk jk). So get your ass to the local farmers market and pick up some healthy chiz.

• 2 large fennel bulbs with fronds attached (also known as ANISE…looked forever before figuring THAT one out!!)
• 3/4 cup extra-virgin olive oil (USE ONLY EVOO! It’s super healthy & trust me, you can tell the difference. Tastes sooo much better!)
• 1 1/2 teaspoons sea salt, divided
• 2 pints grape tomatoes or cherry tomatoes
• 4 large fresh oregano sprigs (if you MUST use dried, guesstimate cause I can’t help you there…)
• 3 large garlic cloves, thinly sliced
• 1/4 teaspoon dried crushed red pepper
• 1 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
• 2 15-ounce cans cannellini (white kidney beans), drained

Preheat oven to 425°F. Chop enough fennel fronds to measure 1/2 cup. Trim fennel bulbs and cut in half vertically. Cut each bulb half ito 1/2-inch-wide wedges, leaving some core attached to each wedge to hold them together.

Heat oil in large skillet over medium-high heat about 3 minutes. Add fennel wedges in single layer; sprinkle with 1 teaspoon salt. Cook until fennel begins to brown and soften, turning occasionally, 10 to 12 minutes. Transfer oil and fennel to glass pie pan. Add tomatoes, oregano, garlic, and crushed red pepper; sprinkle with 1/2 teaspoon salt and 1 teaspoon pepper. Fold together gently.

Bake fennel and tomatoes until soft, stirring occasionally, about 30 minutes. Mix in beans and 6 tablespoons chopped fennel fronds. Bake 5 minutes longer to heat through. Sprinkle with remaining chopped fronds. Serve warm or at room temperature.

Posted 1 year ago